Coffee Makes Me Emotional
How come all my bloggin’ nowadays seems to be about not being able to go to sleep? This is not the best way to start the new year, no sir. I tried…I lay down in bed around 2am, which is not that late considering it was New Year’s Eve, and of course I was at the requisite New Year’s Eve party. But now it’s just about 3am, and I had given up. I’m back up, lights on, and doing the one thing I could think of right now to occupy my mind — right, myspace.
Yes, I could be reading the Bible…or cleaning my room. But I’m here, where I seem to end up when I can’t sleep.
And yes, coffee makes me emotional. I should have known. I don’t drink much, but because it was New Year’s Eve and I wanted to have energy, I had a frappucino before going to church (Mosaic) at 6pm. I was jazzed during service, dancing like a fool during worship. But by the time I went out with friends to dinner afterwards, I was already fading. No! The night was just beginning!
So I had an iced coffee during dinner. Yes, caffeine does initially pep me up…but then…I start getting emotional. Maybe not outwardly, but my heart seems to get all raw. My heart seems to just sit outside my chest sometimes. Like tonight. And I’m not…normal.
And of course now it’s keeping me up. I’m sitting here feeling all sensitized and alert. What a way to start the new year. It was good earlier today. I went to the gym for the first time in a while, brought an mp3 player to listen to while working out, which got me going. While taking a shower after my (short) workout, I was feeling like I was literally washing away the old, preparing for a NEW DAY. I felt good.
It’s still going to be good. This is going to be a good year, like I think 2006 was a good year. There’s more goodness in store, I can feel it in my heart, which is hanging outside my chest.
